Living My Bucket List

I was thinking today about how I am trying and doing things I have always wanted to do....but had never had enough courage to do before. Living my 'bucket list' if you will. Traveling, dancing, singing, being the real me, just putting myself out there, here in this place where I feel safe to do so. It has come from the situation I have found myself in...not knowing how long we'd be here, not knowing where the road ahead of me is leading and not knowing if when I leave here in a few weeks if I'll ever be able to return. I'm not comparing myself to a person with a fatal illness but, I liken it to being told you've only got 'x' amount of time to "Live". Live being the operative word. I mean, I'm not going to die (that I know of) but my time here on the island is short and I feel the impending and dramatic change coming my way. It makes me want to do things while I have the chance. It is a mirror to me of the one life God has given me to live on this earth. It will end, time is not on my side, so...what do I do with the time I am given? I have spent most of my life on the outside looking in. Always watching, never participating. I allowed fear and self doubt to be my decision makers, I did not have my faith and trust in God where it should have been, but in myself who is fallible and self centered. I am seeing things differently these days. God answered my prayer and took me out of my former life, brought me and kept me here to give me rest, to teach me, to let me blossom, to find my voice and ultimately to set me free. I am so grateful, for I know I have been changed and I can never go back to the life I had before...it doesn't fit any more, that girl is gone. So, onward. I don't know what is coming next, but God does. I will trust Him whose timing is perfect. All evidence is in His favor that He will come through. The wave of change is swelling up beneath me but I'm not going to give heed to fear, but start living my one life with purpose. I think I'll add some more things to that bucket list...